Far Away from our Dreams

Like a distant memory you shall pass

And the wind that blows north shall now turn east

More than anything i wish for you

To stay and cuddle me in your arms

One last time.

One last time,

Hold me and do not go.

Let me hear your heart

For I want to know who it beats for

Is it for me?

And then, as the end draws near

I shall hold my breath

And try to persuade my heart

to keep beating.

The look on your face my heart and soul will remember

In every moment that you are with me

In all the places we were together.

I need you

But I dare not be selfish

You must go

I know that now

I'd ask you to stay

But I will not cloud your dreams.

When you go

There is one thing I want to ask..

Do this..

Take a piece of my heart with you

Keep it and be silent

Just remember that more than anything

I love you.

2 more days...

How do you wake up and pretend that everything is ok? That everything's fine and dandy and you have no problem at all.

A Year Later

For more than a year I haven't posted anything here. I guess you might call it "blog-block." I have a lot on paper though but my access to the internet is very limited for the past year ergo the reason for my inactivity. Busy, busy day and yet paranoia still sets in every minute or so. I'm scared as hell. My heart's beating a thousand a min. But I guess I have to do this know to stop everything. I've never been so scared in my entire life. I can't even stand up. I'm shaking all over. Damn it.

Everyone's out to get me. I'm positive. Positive I tell you. You'll all see that I'm right and no one can help me. What will I do then? Where will I go? How do I move on? I got to stop thinkin' about it but it can't be helped. I'm going crazzzzeeee!!! I'm too young!

Tonight I find out. Tomorrow I'll know. Soon I'll leave you or will I? Good tidings! Cheers to my last bottle!